My heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned to stone. your stomach feels sick for someone else. I’ve broken both my legs falling for you. drag me on the ground. powerless I stand, tarnished blade, cutting through, pushed into my vein. blood still stains my hands. sharpening my sense of pain outside, my heart bleeds no more. killing everything off inside. make sense of everything you tried to hide, hide from me. my heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned to stone. my stomach feels sore from cutting up. I ruined all my sanctity for you. smash me on the ground. I wanted to convince myself there’s nothing else to do. I wanted to. provide you with proof of what you put me through. I wanted to. pretend that I was you. killing everything off inside. make sense of everything you tried to hide, hide from me. my heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned to stone. your stomach feels sick for someone else. I’ve broken both my legs falling for you. smash me on the ground.
I used to make the light shine for you. the sun has left my sky. velvet walls surround my sorrows. I’ve sacrificed my pride. you’re giving up on me. I’ve laid myself to sleep tonight. I know you’ve played out everything in your mind. and now you throw it all away. a shattered memory that you would stay, through thick and thin with me. you’re giving up on me. and when you feel the pain, I’m wishing I could stay. how can I say I love you back, you never made me happy. you’ve laid yourself to sleep, I never said this wouldn’t hurt. you gave up everything; I never said I’d give it back. I know you’ll never change; I won’t be good enough for you. I know, you’ll make it through, I’ll never be around to see.
When everyone has left me here, I’ll make it on my own. just wait and see. maybe if you came back down, you’d see it happening to you. maybe you’d even care. hear me out, I don’t think you’ll make it out. hear me out, see the writing on the wall. burn your bridge and wear your heart out on your sleeve. you know you won’t fool me. you made all these promises. you broke all these promises to me. follow your heart this time. did you mean all those things you said? even when you said you’d never change. writing you letters you never read. waste my breath on paper. when you reflect do you get that feeling like you used to? and every time you run away. I know you still have memories. now that you’ve left. make me feel like I’m gone. you did all these things I hated.
The bright light beams from her eyes like broken glass. or a broken heart, who would have guessed? you’d leave me here. beneath my eyes I feel the tears, I hold back. I won’t leave this way again. as my legs start to shake, I feel nothing. I wanted you, I needed you, but you weren’t there for me this time. I won’t leave this way again. you that I loved, that I needed. you weren’t there. not this time. what can I do? I was supposed to love you. what can I say? I won’t leave. what can I do? I was supposed to help you. I cannot feel. last breath I feel, warm air intake. the last summer’s day, last one I take. I won’t leave this way. lost it all for you. when the shadows beam, misery remains. I won’t leave this time.
Fragile leaves hit the ground. the cold air drifts into my lungs. I see your face through the fog. reminds me of the dreams you lost. I can see it in your eyes. you’re broken down; your hands are tied. I can feel it in my side. over and over and over I’ve tried. you’re broken down; your hands are tied. and I know you cannot hide. over and over and over I’ve tried. it broke my heart. it felt so good to see you. I’ve never been one to put my trust in. when did I become so weak, or have I always been? I can’t put all this back in place. this gaping hole in my chest is filled with deceit. I fear that all my cries fell upon deaf ears. I caress flesh with severed nerves. I go veiled in darkness and disease. this november swallows me whole. and this may be the closest thing that you’ll ever receive to an apology. I close my eyes and I can see you dead.
The ending’s the same, past mistakes that you made come back to haunt you. I made a mistake; I wish I could take back everything that I did. I wanted to tell you, I really did. but how do I explain this? promise me you will be there until the red light will change. I would wait forever. promise me you will stay here until the darkness will fade, I’d wait for you.
Never again. I’ll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine. maybe when you find out that I’m dead, you’ll realize what you did to me. and if my lungs still let me breathe, would you be there for me? if I can make myself believe, I’ll give you back what you took away. no, I won’t let it go. douse myself in gasoline. so don’t save me when you come into the fire. I’d rather die than have to see your smile. you made me swear. I can’t sleep. realize all these things that you took from me. smash my heart into dust. suffocate my mind. tear at me from inside. smash apart what you created. how can I ever stop you from crushing my soul? it was yours to begin with.
The end begins. I can’t escape as it pulls me further into anesthesia. tear down my sense of conviction. corrupt my soul. the end begins. in my eyes. in my heart. I have laid upon a deadman’s bed, only to fall into a trap of lies and seduction that rivals the greatest sense of love. play it back until the voice becomes just a sound. penetrate my mind with all these images of you. I have given up an angel’s kiss. only to break apart your path of trust and burn myself down. struggle to the end; I scare myself. I’d give it all to have it back. I could have had it all in front of you all by myself. love in my eyes, lust in my heart. I made it all up. lies, deceit empowers me, so it ends.
I can resist everything except temptation. my body breaks, but I am still intact inside. my human instinct, I can love unconditionally. cross my heart and lie to you (my conscience plagues at me, fills me with this despair) failure within me. promise you and let you down (emotion conquers my soul, robs me of myself) brings me to my knees. follow me, lead you astray (nourish myself with fear, give me the pain to fail) loathe myself to sleep. your words kill me. you can breathe without oxygen and live without sorrow. how I envy you, though pity your ghost. ignorance is bliss I wish I could never love you. so ironic that a heart made by man, when broken is easily fixed. but a human hurt can last a lifetime. rust or decay. the fire or the flame. you and I will lead the path to change. pave the way.